Tomorrow is my last official day working at Fishy Finds, and Friday is the last official day of my internship at CHF. Then i'm off for a week to vacation with the family, then i start full time at CHF in an administrative position. Yup, a full time job. Strangely, the decision to accept the position wasn't as easy as i thought it would be; partially because the week they offered it to me was just insane...
Monday of that week i found out that i didn't make the cut for a job that i wanted pretty badly to work out; a job whose application process has taken up nearly a year of my life. it's impossible for me to be bitter about it because i learned and grew so much from trusting God throughout the process, but it was still a bummer. Tuesday, through some random circumstances, i became "convinced" i should go into the Navy and do their language program. Wednesday, my supervisor told me to start thinking about whether i'd be interested in a full time job at CHF. Friday morning, Cal Lutheran's graduate services left a voicemail, informing me they got my application to work in their office and they'd like to set up an interview. Friday afternoon, my supervisors gave me a formal job offer for CHF. When it rains, it pours.
There was a lot to consider. That insane week had thrown off my perspective and goals for my short term future. Plus i felt guilty that this road to a job at CHF has been so easy for me (i believe i'm qualified to be there but let's be honest, i got in initially because i had connections) when so many other people would do anything to work there. i also felt bad that i'd be quitting Fishy Finds so soon after starting. Also, i've always been reluctant to work at a place where every coworker is a Christian. Anyway after doing a lot of thinking and seeking God's wisdom, He provided a practical solution to each of my misgivings. After more thinking and seeking, i decided to take the position as simply a "next step" in life.
i have no idea how this will end up, and unfortunately i've already begun battling discontentment and impatience (two familiar adversaries) as my lame mind races ahead to "well what about after CHF? what should i do next?" all i know is ultimately i'm glad God reveals His will in small steps, because it forces me to better trust and submit to Him.
On a lighter note, i saw "Across the Universe" and it was pretty good. It was more of a musical than i thought it was going to be, but the choreography was very creative, a lot of their Beatles covers are better than the originals (in my opinion), and it was just a visually incredible movie. And oh mylanta, matinee movies at Irvine Spectrum are $11 now! Unacceptable.
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i've been loving all your posts lately. i especially liked reading the Uganda missionary's blog. it's fascinating, and yes, slightly offensive, but fascinating none the less.
yeah that Uganda blog is something else. we should catch up sometime Jer. i want to know how this summer/stp ended up for you. oh and i want to hear your thoughts on what's going on in Burma.
Sounds like you're doing well. Grood.
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